loneliness

I hate it everytime he goes off before me. I dont know why. Just hate it. Feel so lonely. So unwanted. Like casted away and so. Heh. I hate it whenever it happens because I usually end up sobbing my way to sleep.

I'm not joking. I'm not exagerating. I'm scared. Heh. All alone downstairs. Always freaks me out. Yet nothing can be done of it.

Tonight. I'm left alone again. So cold. So lonely. So timid. Perfect timing for his dream to come true. Just a moment of pain and everything'll be gone. Yet I'm afraid to let go. Besides, I still wanna stand by lyon. Cant let him down like this. For at least. He always makes me feel so much better. In a sense we rely on each other at times. Heh. Dunno why. Just makes me feel better knowing that there's someone caring for me that need me too.